If I had blogged on 19th June itself, my answer would have been a resounding yes. I just couldnt get angry with anyone for long unless you hurt my feelings then you are so dead. hahahaaa. Well, all I can say is that I will do my job to look after her for the balance 13 weeks and then I will wash my hands off.
But ask me that question today and I would have answered 'definitely not' in a very indignant manner. I can be very cold and heartless too.
Alright, this is going to be my last blog entry for a long time. Maybe about 4 months? I dont know. I have a lot of things to settle and the most troubling one is my work politics issue thing. Before I continue to elaborate on my work issue, I would like to explain why I am going to stop blogging for awhile. I love blogging and expressing myself but after some time, I realise that I am not always entirely truthful about what I say in here. Another thing is that I want to change my character. I noticed too that if I were to continue blogging, I can never actually change my attitude and hence my character would always be the same since my style of talking/doing things would remain unchanged. Yes, I do think alot and some people do ask me to stop thinking so deeply and one even said I am weird as I think too much. Hahaaa. Anyway, isnt it the right time to change then?
There is a Chinese proverb that says "It takes 3 days to learn bad ways but takes 3 years to become good." So it will take me some time to change and hopefully at the end of 4 months, I will emerge a better person. Okay, I lied that I was Matthew 2.0, a changed person. I was still the same Matthew who woke up every day and fought to survive each day like a battered man.
Alright, now back to my work issue. Ever since the second week of work, I noticed this colleague of mine who is also an intern. She is what I would call as a super bitch and a backstabber. Her eyes can kill a person so she was a little into anti-me and I can sense it as she is always whispering when she talk to her friends. I talk to her friends and they dont have to whisper la so its kind of obvious now right. Anyway, I heard her whispering my name to them too. So it is like I dont know who to trust and as a result, I have to be on my guard all the time at work.
All my life, I was always noted a person to be my friend once I talk to him/her. But in the 3 weeks working in Shell, I finally realised that I was wrong all my life. Accquantance was the proper word to describe them. Friends are for those who could think alike and share their thoughts with you and would even stand up for you when the situation calls for it. Best friends are friends who have upgraded from friend status only after we have gone through many difficult situations together and we have very strong bonding till we are almost like brothers/sisters. Alvinn is my accquantance but maybe he can be my friend soon. It all depends.
Changing my character would require a lot of strength and determination. I wish myself all the best and I hope I make the right decisions along the way. Goodbye bloggie! I am going to miss talking to you but I have to do what is necessary. TAlk soon! Till then..
Cheers,
Matthew
20/6/2009 10:49pm
Friday, June 19, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Emotion is a roller coaster.
Today was like an emo day for me. The last time I had this kind of days was when I was in TP year 1. I was very angry in the morning and it felt strangely good. It feels good when you feel anger coursing through your veins and the adrenaline rush them comes complimentary with it. Anger if harnessed properly can be called determination. But what I felt this morning was far from it. Afraid to lose control of myself, I decided to cool down (leng qi yi dian). Then I was happy for awhile, upset next, happy again, sad, very very sad for awhile, pissed by someone's attitude, then happy again and finally normal now. Hence, I decided to blog to 'remember' this day.
Hahaa..I havent been blogging here regularly.
I am feeling tired and worned out, and have been spending a lot of money lately. Crap.
Aiya..so many things to do. So many issues to solve. So so so..aishhh..forget it la. I am not going to say here. Because I simply do not know where to start.
Godspeed Matthew. jia you!
Hahaa..I havent been blogging here regularly.
I am feeling tired and worned out, and have been spending a lot of money lately. Crap.
Aiya..so many things to do. So many issues to solve. So so so..aishhh..forget it la. I am not going to say here. Because I simply do not know where to start.
Godspeed Matthew. jia you!
Monday, June 15, 2009
Woops..sorry for neglecting u!
HAhaaa..sorry sorry! I feel as though I have neglected this blog.
Today took me alot of effort to get out of bed. In fact, I literally crawled out of bed! hahaa. So tiring and irritating to have to wake up at 5am in the morning to get to work on time. tsk tsk. Life still goes on and I dragged myself around the usual morning procedures (yawn!).
I got to work on time, in fact very early, I took the 7am bus into Seraya. Did my Shell work thing that I cannot mention here as I had signed some contract to secrecy yada yada..
I still havent talk to the supervisor. And today everybody seem so cold towards me. What did I do wrong? Arent I always smiling? haiya..so depressing to go to work that way. Thank God there was a nice pretty girl who still wanted to talk to me when I said I was bored. hahaa. But she has got way to many admirers. Anyway, she and I can only be friends. She is 2 years older than me ei!! So no way. Anyway, Im off duty. hahahaaa.
Bad day was neutralised to become okay-day by nice people. Puneet is a nice indian technologist, very friendly and when he smiles, it just makes your day brighten up!
Cheers,
Matthew. Over and out. ^^
Today took me alot of effort to get out of bed. In fact, I literally crawled out of bed! hahaa. So tiring and irritating to have to wake up at 5am in the morning to get to work on time. tsk tsk. Life still goes on and I dragged myself around the usual morning procedures (yawn!).
I got to work on time, in fact very early, I took the 7am bus into Seraya. Did my Shell work thing that I cannot mention here as I had signed some contract to secrecy yada yada..
I still havent talk to the supervisor. And today everybody seem so cold towards me. What did I do wrong? Arent I always smiling? haiya..so depressing to go to work that way. Thank God there was a nice pretty girl who still wanted to talk to me when I said I was bored. hahaa. But she has got way to many admirers. Anyway, she and I can only be friends. She is 2 years older than me ei!! So no way. Anyway, Im off duty. hahahaaa.
Bad day was neutralised to become okay-day by nice people. Puneet is a nice indian technologist, very friendly and when he smiles, it just makes your day brighten up!
Cheers,
Matthew. Over and out. ^^
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Terminator Salvation
Just a quick entry here. I went to watch Terminator Salvation last sunday!! It was nicer than I anticipated it to be so yes I would give it 4 out of 5 stars. Went to collect my repaired laptop to right after that.
A little update of my life at Shell. Still very slack as our supervisor is heavily involved in S2 turnaround so he is not free to talk much to us and give us our MP title. Patience. Patience. tsk.
Hmmm..having an ultra uber private blog was a very interesting idea indeed.
Anyway, I heard this song as a ringtone whilst I was at work so I hunted down the music data base for this and tada. My efforts paid off!
Enjoyy!
Cheers,
matthew
A little update of my life at Shell. Still very slack as our supervisor is heavily involved in S2 turnaround so he is not free to talk much to us and give us our MP title. Patience. Patience. tsk.
Hmmm..having an ultra uber private blog was a very interesting idea indeed.
Anyway, I heard this song as a ringtone whilst I was at work so I hunted down the music data base for this and tada. My efforts paid off!
Enjoyy!
Cheers,
matthew
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Two souls and one thought, two hearts and one pulse
Two souls and One thought,
Two hearts and One pulse.
Isn't that lovely? Saw that on the web. Someone's blog. heheeh
Awww man I love that. Love it! Love it! Love it! ^^
Two hearts and One pulse.
Isn't that lovely? Saw that on the web. Someone's blog. heheeh
Awww man I love that. Love it! Love it! Love it! ^^
Shell Seraya!!! Weehooo!
Ok so yes I am working at Shell Seraya. Enjoying myself there, make new friends, talk rubbish and stuff. Basically enjoying myself. Yes of course, sometimes I get upset and unhappy but only sometimes!haha
Yes! My laptop is finally completely repaired. I sent it to Challenger Simei to get it fixed, costed my parents 200+ hahaha as I had to get a storage drive thing (they had to reformat my laptop and stuff) so I bought the nicest one I could find hehheee!
I was a little pissed this morning when I missed the 7am Shell bus even though I ran for it. Well actually, I didnt exactly run for it, I just jogged over to it but was too slow I guess, so ya I waited for the next bus at 7.20am and ended walking around Jurong East MRT for the next 20 min. Boohooo.
Today was funny too! Funny Alvinn! His face expression is so hilarious!!!! What happened was that he was playing with Sarah's (my new friend too) Nokia 5800 phone and he was like tapping the screen so hard that Sara started saying Alvinn so stupid one must press the screen so hard. (So gong gong like that la). Both of them should be a couple!! But both attached already. :( too bad! Anyway, I was laughing so hard from behind Alvinn that I forgot to swallow my saliva and drooled a little on Alvinn. He was like staring at the drool saliva on his arm for 5 seconds, with that super hilarious blank expression then he finally said "Wa lao, Matthew". Me and Sara kept on laughing in the office after we saw his face. Hahahahahaaaaaaaa.
It was supposed to be an embarrassing moment for me but I ended up laughing so hard till my stomach hurt like nuts! hahahaa. ^^
Oh and the food there is way better than CPTC and a lot cheaper too. Well it is about $2.70 for 1 meat and 2 vegetables on average. =)
I finally got to sit on Koi's Avante last friday! He picked me and karen up, and drove us to Oasis to eat. So fun to let your friend drive you. The feeling is unexpressable in words. Well, at least not now, I've got to improve my command of the language. But it feels so comforting to see him drive so steadily and confident after just 2 months from getting his car/lisense. That means I can too!
I wanna drive and I wanna get a car. Hahaaa..all in due time I guess. hehee
Chheeeeerrrrs,
Matthew
Yes! My laptop is finally completely repaired. I sent it to Challenger Simei to get it fixed, costed my parents 200+ hahaha as I had to get a storage drive thing (they had to reformat my laptop and stuff) so I bought the nicest one I could find hehheee!
I was a little pissed this morning when I missed the 7am Shell bus even though I ran for it. Well actually, I didnt exactly run for it, I just jogged over to it but was too slow I guess, so ya I waited for the next bus at 7.20am and ended walking around Jurong East MRT for the next 20 min. Boohooo.
Today was funny too! Funny Alvinn! His face expression is so hilarious!!!! What happened was that he was playing with Sarah's (my new friend too) Nokia 5800 phone and he was like tapping the screen so hard that Sara started saying Alvinn so stupid one must press the screen so hard. (So gong gong like that la). Both of them should be a couple!! But both attached already. :( too bad! Anyway, I was laughing so hard from behind Alvinn that I forgot to swallow my saliva and drooled a little on Alvinn. He was like staring at the drool saliva on his arm for 5 seconds, with that super hilarious blank expression then he finally said "Wa lao, Matthew". Me and Sara kept on laughing in the office after we saw his face. Hahahahahaaaaaaaa.
It was supposed to be an embarrassing moment for me but I ended up laughing so hard till my stomach hurt like nuts! hahahaa. ^^
Oh and the food there is way better than CPTC and a lot cheaper too. Well it is about $2.70 for 1 meat and 2 vegetables on average. =)
I finally got to sit on Koi's Avante last friday! He picked me and karen up, and drove us to Oasis to eat. So fun to let your friend drive you. The feeling is unexpressable in words. Well, at least not now, I've got to improve my command of the language. But it feels so comforting to see him drive so steadily and confident after just 2 months from getting his car/lisense. That means I can too!
I wanna drive and I wanna get a car. Hahaaa..all in due time I guess. hehee
Chheeeeerrrrs,
Matthew